well, my head has cleared a little

unfortunately, my right ear is still pressurized, and my throat is raw.At least my nose has cleared enough that I can breath through that now instead of my mouth.The library is shitting me. The books I need are either on load until freaking September, or they're not on the shelves. How am I supposed to find them if they're not where they're supposed to be.I have another appointment with the councellors today, I hope my voice is going to work.I'm going through waves at the moment, some of the time I'm okay, and then I get sucked back under again.anyway.I think I'm going to go to uni, there's a chance I might be productive there.

I just got back from the ben fold's concert

I have to say, that was one of the best live performances I've been to.The Metro was absolutely packed out, and he played not only really well, but he genuinely seemed to enjoy being there. He had a laugh and I've never seen so much audience participation.I really like his music and I guess i'd sort of forgotten why.I really had fun, and the cold and flu tablets managed to keep me sorted right up until I got home, at which point I quickly collapsed into a sneezing fit which lasted for almost 2 minutes.yeah.very impressed.And the supporting act weren't bad either.Gelbison...

worst night's sleep ever

I don't think I have ever slept that badly. that was really awful.I swung between syupidly cold, to crazy feverish hot. I dehydrated so much that I almost passed out trying to get to the bathroom so I could take some more painkillers.My ears feel like they're about to implode and my back is killing me.As are my legs, head and sinuses.this is really horrible.I called in sick to work, can't concentrate on anything long enough to get work done.No one's home and my parents have gone away for the weekend, so I can't even mooch off them.I'd go to the doctors, but I'm a bit worried I'll pass out on the way.I hate this.

awake early and looking for an excuse to stay in bed...

So.recently, i'm still at uni. I'm still enjoying my courses, but as per usual, i should be a lot more motivated to do work than I am. Similarly, I'm reasonable healthy, however, i should be going to the gym more (at all at this point) and eating more fresh fruit and vegetables.I seem to be continually fighting off a cusp cold, thankfully noone around me really seems to have been afflicted so far.Katie has moved out of Tim's room, and Dominic is in the process of moving out of mine. Most of his stuff is now gone and there remains only some shorts, a tennis racket, his uni course folders and a few other odds and ends.After a lot of badgering and some mild crisis induced panic involving me running off to my paretns house for a bit, nature took its course and he took a room with a couple of male spanish nurses. Apparently they're very cool guys and make possibly the best roomates ever, he doesn't seem so keen on the house though. I'm currently on midsession break. this is good, but slightly annoying because not even the schools are on holidays now. this means that we have 10 weeks of uni solid, no break.If everything goes as plans, and the end of those 10 weeks, I'll be jetting off to singapore courtesy of my degree to study various things at their university for 5 weeks, followed by 1 week on tioman island off the west coast of malaysia. This means doing my exams over there and all that, which could be a bit hectic, but all the more reason to get all my crap under my belt before I go.Over the long weekend I went camping at the basin with a bunch of my mates who were around when I was in high school.4 years ago, we went to the same spot, and while the weather was a little nicer 4 years ago, this time was pretty fantastic.There were about 20 of us altogether and I don't know exactly how we whiled away the time, but aside from a few bushwakls, we spent most of the time either preparing or eating food, or playing/singing songs around a camp fire.I had an enormous amount of fun, dampened only by the decision by Dom, who stayed in sydney, and myself to finally do what we should have done ages ago, and split up.So, I'm a single girl, although I doubt Dom will stay single for long, he has a great personality, and to be honest, it would make it easier to actually move on if I saw him with somebody else.I'm feeling fine about the whole being single thing, no problems there. Even though I'll still see dom, I'll still miss him, because he's been my best friend pretty much since the day I met him. And the 'complicité' might not be there anymore. But you can't keep flogging the same dead horse. And if we're not careful, we might just end up hurting each other. So, following our own advice given to each other, by each other so many times, we shall be adult and be friends.I'm actually scared at the thought of meeting someone else. It seems such hard work. I question whether I want to relinquish as much of my private thoughts and emotions as I have.Dom has always been so good at respecting the boundaries of how he applies what he knows about me, that I don't know whether I would be capable of having a constructive relationship.although, I don't really know how constructive ours has been of late.But then I guess life is full of surprises. someone could rock up out of the blue and completely blow my mind.but it seems unlikely, and as such, for the moment, I plan to take my romantic life slow and hope that it does not manage to get in the way of my studies.this is em, signing out

Worst. Updater. EVER!

So, I was sitting on the library lawn with Shauna and Matt today, and the subject of taxes came up when it became apparent that Shauna had been awarded a commonwealth scholarship and they are tax free.I mentioned that i opted to have a portion of my youth allowance subtracted in tax, so as not to have to pay it later, to which Shauna said that I probably didn't need to put away as much as I did. So that got me thinking, so I came home and pulled out last years tax pack and had a look at what I would be expecting to be paying.I found a few surprises.a) Ret assistance is tax free, so thats $65 odd from my allowance that I don't have to include in my calculations.b) I still qualify for the loow income earners offsetc) As an allowance recipient, I also get a beneficiaries offset, which apparently is calculated by the government... which I don't remember from last year, but the ATO web page talks about it, so I guess it must be true.Anyway, the important bit is that, if I continue to earn what I am earning and EVEN if the UNSW HR were to stop taking tax from my pay, I would still have paid enough tax to get a refund, and and even bigger one if (and when, because they will) continue to take out money.Yay, forced savings.very happy about this.

why am I not seeing the aviator?

I believe it may have something to do with the same reason I didn't see gangs of new york.I like Martin Scorscese. really.Why do I have such a thing against Di caprio.I love Caite Blanchette.I know Di caprio can be good (what's eating gilbert grape?)so what's my problem.something's held me back twice now.

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so.What's new.well, thursday night I met up with dylan for dinner and then headed out to 3 wise monkeys again. I was supposed to meet Tim and his friend emma there, but while I was getting some drinks I ran into Yergan. He was there with another ex-collegue of Ellen's and so Dylan and I joined up with them to play. Then the covers band for the night started playing and it was all of the classic pop rock and I was in my element. We stayed until about midnight before calling it a night.Friday as I mentioned in my previous post I found out what it was that was making me not be paid. In the evening I met up with steve and Jane to see "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless mind" at the open air cinema. We grabbed some wine and some antipasto and enjoyed the setting sun over the harbour. It's a pretty impressive setting to be honest with you. over looking the water, the bridge and operah house.The movie was awesome too. Clever, quirky, completely unrealistic, but really nice to see Jim Carey acting as a normal person, if anything he was his antithesis. Completely opposite to anything I've ever seen him as... except for possibly the last scenes in man on the moon.Anyway. Saturday was a lazy lazy lazy day, but still managed to result in a self-servicing epiphany. I was talking to Tim about the movie and hanging out with Steve and Jane, and it suddenly hit me. Kinda cool actually.I was feeling kinda queazy most of the afternoon but thankfully was better by 8 when Boe came by to pick me up.While I was having a drink with Steve i got a phonecall from her, pretty much out of the blue, asking if I wanted to go check out 'Short 'n Sweet' which was playing at the edge, in Newtown. Basically a stage version of Tropfest. *for those non-aussies, tropfest is a short film festival.We went to see one of the Heats and at the end we had to vote on the play we thought was the best.Some of them were really clever and insightful, others were a little... well tried to be too deep and basically were lost on me.Anyway, cultural things aside, I got home a bit before 11 and Lara called to see where I was and if I was still going to make it to elden's birthday. So I grabbed my music and a jumper and headed down to the bustop.Bus turned up 15 mins late and then we got stuck at moore park as every wanna be multi-pierced, slag-ho try hard quasi goth got on the bus, without prepaid tickets no less. A slipknot concert had just finished... so yeah. ugh, not a fun busride.So I gets to the party and it's all fun and games and I don't actually end up leaving until 5 am.I then sleep until 2pm and do nothing but read a book until 4.30 at which point i hike my arse down to the gym for Boxacise.I paired up with Boe and Andrew was taking the class... the only problem was, after 20 mins of deflecting punches, my fingers were pretty damn sore. Today I worked All day. and then went to boxercise... I walked both to work and home from the gym, and rewarded myself with a refreshing mandarin and melon calippo for the stroll home.watched a heap of trashy TV (read:Desperate Housewives) AND now I'm considering sleep.